Friday, April 10, 2009
10:07 PM
"Do not be afraid of growing slowly but worry when you're standing still."An apt message or rather personal punchline for my BMT phase. As of this week, I've officially completed my PTP phase and will be going on to the BMT phase-where real training will begin. Once again, I'm not allowed to disclose my training programme but deep down, just wanna let all of you know ( whoever reads this blog in my non-existent days) that I'm a bit apprehensive knowing that it will be a daunting experience. Anyway, I failed my IPPT. yea loser eh? I'm still a zero fighter for my pull up and I cannot jump,like totally. Honestly, it's really a bad feeling. Everyone is improving, except me.At that very moment,my heart cringed( no exaggeration) and the disappointment just welled up, uncontainable. Like chain reactions, my disappointment will crystallize into negativity and one should never underestimate the power of it- it kills, from inside out. One would become bitter and critical about everything they see and do. sigh. I need some success. Only personal glory can dispel the negativity. Achievement in one's life is of paramount importance- it just spices up your life and cause your self esteem to escalate exponentially. Unfortunately and with must regret, till today, I have not experience such kind of feeling. They say, good things come to those who wait and I'm waiting. I hope IPPT will become one of those glorifying moments :)On a lighter note, I've received an invitation to the Pre-Admission Reception for the Wee Kim Wee Sch of Mass Comm and Info. :) Mixed feelings I would say- excitement,trepidation...Hope it will turn out fine.Dickson is incredible. All alone in China. What an opportunity!Anyway. I'm shedding weight. yay!
