Sunday, April 26, 2009
1:40 PM
I used to like rainy days when I was young because I could put on my boots and run in the direction of the wind. I imagined I was a horse, galloping towards the great plains...then I grew up and I couldn't do it anymore.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
1:13 PM
Friday, April 17, 2009
5:16 PM
i realised. I've gained weight. i dunno why. Tomorrow is my Pre-Admission Reception at NTU and I'm kinda excited and of course it is accompanied by a certain level of fear. Maybe its because I feel I'm not updated with the current affairs and I'm not armed with figures and facts! What if they pop me a question on...say..the political situation in Indonesia and Thailand??!! or...the latest policies on research on Stem Cells in USA??!! Anyhow, I'm a frog in the well and there is nothing much I can do now ( other than read today's papers) so I'll brave the storm and charge forward!Was blog hopping and read many of my classmates' post on their interviews! unfortunately, I've not received any letter from any of the Universities. Sigh. really bad feeling. Remembered my previous entry was on personal achievements and it's importance, reading it again is like rubbing salt to an open wound- the sizzling pain, my heart aches. I'm just not good enough and I wonder if I'm really meant for such mediocre life? Success? I'm dubious.
Friday, April 10, 2009
10:07 PM
"Do not be afraid of growing slowly but worry when you're standing still."An apt message or rather personal punchline for my BMT phase. As of this week, I've officially completed my PTP phase and will be going on to the BMT phase-where real training will begin. Once again, I'm not allowed to disclose my training programme but deep down, just wanna let all of you know ( whoever reads this blog in my non-existent days) that I'm a bit apprehensive knowing that it will be a daunting experience. Anyway, I failed my IPPT. yea loser eh? I'm still a zero fighter for my pull up and I cannot jump,like totally. Honestly, it's really a bad feeling. Everyone is improving, except me.At that very moment,my heart cringed( no exaggeration) and the disappointment just welled up, uncontainable. Like chain reactions, my disappointment will crystallize into negativity and one should never underestimate the power of it- it kills, from inside out. One would become bitter and critical about everything they see and do. sigh. I need some success. Only personal glory can dispel the negativity. Achievement in one's life is of paramount importance- it just spices up your life and cause your self esteem to escalate exponentially. Unfortunately and with must regret, till today, I have not experience such kind of feeling. They say, good things come to those who wait and I'm waiting. I hope IPPT will become one of those glorifying moments :)On a lighter note, I've received an invitation to the Pre-Admission Reception for the Wee Kim Wee Sch of Mass Comm and Info. :) Mixed feelings I would say- excitement,trepidation...Hope it will turn out fine.Dickson is incredible. All alone in China. What an opportunity!Anyway. I'm shedding weight. yay!
Friday, April 3, 2009
7:51 PM
Hello civilisation.It's been almost 3 weeks since I enlisted and a lot of changes have taken place, physically and emotionally. But due to the interest of the nation and the issue of sensitivity, I'm not allowed to blog about anything regarding the Army. Those that have seen me, will know that I'm blacken by the Tekong sun and I'm gonna get darker when more training comes. I've lost weight. about 4kg. I'm like hovering at 73kg. my target weight is 65kg! so 8 more kg to go! woots!
