Thursday, January 24, 2008
I feel so stupid
10:42 PM
"Don't let the number define your life" said my Vice-Principal a long time ago.
It's easier said than done.
Today was the inaugural day-release of the long awaited O'level results. Firstly, I would like to congratulate my secondary school, for breaking a record- they produced a 7-pointer. Well done!!
Next, I would like to congratulate my SCAP attachee, Jun Jia, for getting 10 points! the thing was, on Wednesday night, he was still worried that he might get like 21 points? but? !!! He damn pro can! CONGRATS. unfortunately, he is not intending to stay in pjc =(
A year ago, I shared the same feeling on many individuals who collected their results today. Some went with confidence, knowing for sure that they will do well, but they are also some, who went with fear, knowing that their fate is just a few steps away.
I,of course, went with fear. disappointment. i got 17. What a score! so much for studying 2 weeks before O'levels. hah. that explains.
Today, I felt really stupid, hearing from many sources, this batch of O'level graduates did pretty well. Single-points is the new IN. Suddenly, i felt very low. and affected. NO doubt, my fate has already been decided a year ago, in fact, many years ago, the day i stepped into Juying Secondary, i cannot help, but felt a wave of emotions engulfing me. I was overwhelmed. with disappointment. and regrets.
I regretted not studying hard for my O'levels. really. As I typed this entry, my mind began to drift away...to 4 years ago...
if i had study hard enough.
