Thursday, December 27, 2007
pending doom
11:10 PM
I have not given up on blogging, it is just that I've been very busy for the past month, both with camps and Orientation and to add on to that, my emotions decided to travel around the world- well, don't take it too literal and you'll understand what i meant.
Sunburst Youth Camp was a success and definitely a memorable one. I've made many friends, be it from Singapore, Myanmar, Indonesia,The Philippines, Cambodia,Laos,India and the list goes on. I'm so glad I was given this chance to take part in this camp.It was truly an experience and a must-go.
Following closely or rather immediately after this camp was OGL camp, well, many things happen during the camp and i truly regret for choosing to be a clan master. Council rejected my proposal.My committee head kinda went back on her words. Very upset and disappointed over that matter. my council is chui.so am I.Celebrated Christmas! Received a lot of presents.I went forward again.yes again. Will history repeat itself? Does it meant anything? Does "re dedication" exist?2008. Am i ready for it? I feel like I'm facing it with trepidation and uncertainty. I doubt myself, of my own capability, am i ready for A'levels? Do i have what it takes? What will happen to my relationship with my friends? Church? Cell group? My dad? will he every recover? My mum, will her health suffer? My brother? will he get a stable job? Myself? Will i pass my NAPFA? Will i cope with council work and studies? Will my maths improve? Will i ace my Chem? Will i enter into a relationship? Will i retain or worst still ask to leave college? Can i cope? Will i crumpled under the feet of 2008?am i ready?My mum says, I'm the worst Christian she has ever seen. She said I've joined a cult. The thing is, she has not seen the rest, those world shakers and history makers. Those Samson, Gideon, Shamgar...those heroes of Faith. I'm actually the worst. I've not entered a cult. But i allow the devil to dominate my soul.It's been months,since i last spoke to my father. He's a stranger to me.The day he die,is the day I'll regret the most. I know it,even from the beginning.
