Sunday, November 11, 2007
ARRAY of EMOTIONS
12:16 AM
I was in the classroom,safe. The others were not,trapped in the Lecture theatre,unsafe.All of us knew this fateful day will come, a day where their destiny for the next year or so is determined. 9 months ago, a class of 24 students come together as one, today, out of this 24, 7 will have to leave the class,leave us. Courage is what they need now, to face whatever that is ahead of them. If the poly route was meant to be, so be it. If retaining helps, the better it is. You're remembered.All the best to the 7 of youMay your Courage shine within =)Jesus.God.These two words seem so far away from me right now,so distant,so unfamiliar,so strange. For your information, I've not been attending church for almost 3 months already and within this period of time, my life changed, dramatically, for the good or for the better, i'm unsure but there is definitely a change. It is evident. I was chatting with Junxian over msn a few days ago, about attending church,about God. He commented that he will be going back to the house of God so as to spend time with his church friends, to get together. He asked me to go back to church with him. I declined his kind offer, without even considering..wait..or did i?Unlike him, i do not wish to go back to church, to meet up with my cell group members, for the fact that these are the people i wish to remove and forget from my life. Well...not all of them i guess, but most of them. Life will be better if i can just right click on them,click delete and see them in the Recycle Bin. heh! why? For the very reason that they were the ones who forced me to leave church.forced me to leave the cell group. They were the people who forsake me and choose to see me fall when i need them the most. They are the ones who made me left God.yes,without a single doubt.I'm a BAD christian. so just leave me alone. The kingdom of God is never where i should be in.never.
